Make It Better, For Today

I try to think about tomorrow;

But I always think about the past;

About the things that didn't last.

   

    The third quarter passed by quickly, almost unnoticed. It’s strange how the days seem to blur together, and before you know it, you're looking back at the time that’s already gone. I try to think about tomorrow, but I always think about the past. That’s how it felt for me. My mind kept returning to what happened rather than what was yet to come. It’s like time moved forward, but I was still stuck reflecting on the things that didn’t last. If I had done things differently, maybe I would have taken more chances or made better decisions. But there’s no going back.

    If I could go to the beginning, then for sure I would be another way. That’s what I think about when I look back at moments where I felt unsure or failed to act. There were times when I wished I had made different choices, but that’s the way life goes, isn’t it? We learn as we go, and sometimes the lessons are hard to accept. If I had known what I know now, I might have approached things differently, handled situations with more confidence or clarity. But, just like the song says, I can’t go back. I can only move forward with what I’ve learned.

    One of the biggest challenges in the quarter was trying to balance everything. Between school, personal goals, and everything else that demanded attention, it felt overwhelming. Remember when we were happy? I often found myself longing for simpler times when everything seemed more manageable, more carefree. It was easier to stay focused back then, before the responsibilities piled up. But now, everything feels like it’s moving faster than I can keep up with. I found myself asking, If I’m late, can I thank you now? It’s strange to realize that the time for reflection often comes too late, after the moment has passed.

    As I reflect on the quarter, I realize how much I learned despite all the struggles. I thought I had all the answers at first, but I soon discovered that I was still figuring things out. It wasn’t always easy, but in a way, the challenges helped me grow. I remember when we were happy, that’s all I think about now. Sometimes it’s hard to stay positive, but looking back at the things that went well or made me happy helps put things into perspective. It’s easy to forget those moments when you’re focused on the next task, but those memories are what keep me going.

    Looking ahead, I know I still have a lot to work on. There are goals that remain unfinished, and new challenges are sure to come. But as the song says, If I could go to the beginning, I would be another way, make it better for today. I can’t change the past, but I can apply what I’ve learned to the present. The future is always uncertain, but I know that I can continue trying. It’s about doing better today, learning from yesterday, and moving forward with a little more clarity.

    The third quarter might not have been perfect, but I’m thankful for the lessons it brought. I’m going to try, even when things seem uncertain. I want to thank you anyhow, because even the doubts, the challenges, and the setbacks have something to teach. I’m learning to be okay with the mistakes, knowing that it’s all part of the journey.

    So, I’ll keep moving forward, one step at a time, ready for whatever comes next. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll find that peace in the present that I’ve been looking for.